a story told by the sky...

The Forgotten Flower

2009-12-16T18:23:00.003+08:00

I am the flower.

The youth of my beauty dazzle in the sky.

Sweet charming fragrance dances in the breeze.

I feel your touch on my soft fragile petals.

Ubiquitous colours absorbs such divine light.

The emptiness filled with euphoric delight.

I am the flower,

And was now named alive.

I made you my everything,

And everything; I bear you with fruits.

You plucked me out and brought me to a fairy tale,

In a flamboyant vase filled with precious water.

I was the only one floating in the crystal castle.

Your truly one and only, gullibly I thought.

Yet, I was blinded by your sunshine,

So much that I could not tell what's bright,

And what's not.

As the sun began to set,

I am still a flower.

However, a flower that was forgotten.

Forgotten by your ignorance.

Forgotten by my needs.

My colours began to fade into a darker sorrow,

That was the lack of your attention.

Dark fragile leaves began to crumple and hide themselves,

That was the lack of your care.

My sorrowful petals began to wither into the darkness,

That was the lack of your love.

As the last few rays of sunset pours the Earth,

I was getting old,

I was helplessly dying,

I was a flower, forgotten.

And as the new moon begin to rise,

I left a memory of a beautiful flower,

That was now named gone.

---

Written by : Me

Poetry rocks! It helps me to clear shit out of my mind.

\m/

2009-11-21T23:32:00.001+08:00

hmmm...

*ehem* Someone wanted me to post a pic.

Well, there you go...

*runs away*

Chapter Two: The Dream.

2009-11-07T20:10:00.005+08:00

It has been

secondsminitesdaysweeksmonths

since I've ever posted in this blog.

Well, finally now I get the chance to continue

my story scrapped from my imagination.

I know it's not that good yet.

But as long as someone's reading it, I'll keep writing.

So let your imagination fly free!

...

Chapter Two.

The Dream.

THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME in my entire life that I've woken up with a bright smile on my face. The marigold sunshine of the early morning polished the blue-framed sky. I watched the birds fly, flutteting their wings freely. Free and calm. And somehow, I wished I could be those birds and fly high together with them. To see the world like I've never seen it before. Fly to the highest point and look down from below, watch the life I've always been living in past by. But then again, I can only dream of flying.

I closed my eyes. I tried hard to recall back what I've dreamt last night. A dream I had always been dreaming for. It was different from my other dreams, special in a good way. It was just surreal. A part of those feelings in that dreams were so real. I could still feel his words linger in my memory. Who was that boy? He was like an angel in my dreams. And for the first time ever, I had actually felt important to someone. But that would be absurd. I know that deep down, it was all just an illusion. The boy, the lust, the love and the hope. What I call it; Dreams. They are like reflection of our minds, of what we've all thinking. Thoughts we never thought of before and those that we're constantly thinking about. It's all reflected in our dreams. A bank of our imagination.

But you see, I live in my own world now. A world made up of my imagination and dreams. It's only in my dreams that I could ever feel safe. In my dreams, that I could walk with the knowlegde that I never walk alone. In my dreams, that I could behold profound happiness. In my dreams, that I could never get hurt or know any pain. But it's a fact that I'm in a world that isn't real at all. It's nice and I love to dream. It's nice because when I dream, I have no worries, I don't think. I'll just let my mind and imagination wander off. Setting free every single pain, worries, sufferings from the reality. And I've never felt better.

And maybe that's my kind of way to escape from the cruel reality. Immersing myself with great imagination.

Chapter One: A Hopeless Miracle

2009-10-02T18:07:00.010+08:00

Chapter One.

A Hopeless Miracle.

She looked up to the clear blue sky.

The green apple grass was swaying in the wind.

She was finally free.

For days, walking with the conscience she can't bear

She was a dreamer.

Dreamless dreams she dreamt.

And yet, she was still hopelessly hoping for a miracle...

...

"Believe in yourself more" he said.

How could I? I thought to myself.

In this cruel world, who would?

When there's no one else,

who would believe in my voice?

I was trapped in the misery of my past.

Nothing could change that fact.

Though, at that moment, he was there for me.

I just needed to hear it from him.

"Do you believe in me then?" I finally said.

"Of course, I'll always will."

I smiled. I knew he did. And I was grateful.

For he was the only person

in this world who believed in me.

He was the cure to my pain, my misery.

The bliss of my solitude.

I just wasn't brave enough to say it right in his eyes.

I wished I did, for my life would have turned out better.

"Don't give up the last hope in you.

Deep down inside, you'll find it.

Even when the world seems to be

surrounded with darkness,

when the sun don't shine for you,

or the moon isn't bright anymore.

Don't run away, cause there's still hope, my dear."

His words were so beautiful

that a sharp pain cuts my heart.

In that moment of time,

I was about to break down.

I couldn't understand why.

So much feelings, buried inside of me.

And he was still there. He was there for me.

"Don't be afraid to cry.

Don't be afraid to show your tears."

He turned and looked at me.

Tranquility filled my heart.

I wish I could have been stronger.

I looked up to the clear blue sky, again.

Thinking of the right words to say.

But my voice was fading...

"Why... Why are you saying all these?

Why do you care so much?"

My voice slowly disappearing, trying to catch my breath.

"It's because..." hesitantly he said.

"I love you"

At that moment, a drop of tear fell

from my helpless eyes.

And it changed my heart forever...

...

Can love or a tiny drop of hope from someone turn sadness into a miracle?

A part of a story from my imagination.

(to be continued)

hopefully, that is.

the kite runner.

2009-09-29T21:53:00.003+08:00

I am lost in a snowstorm.

The wind shrieks, blows stinging sheets of snow into my eyes.

I stagger through layers of shifting white.

I call for help, but the wind drowns my cries.

I fall and lie panting on the snow, lost in the white,

the wind wailing in my ears.

I watched the snow erased my fresh footprints.

I'm a ghost now, a ghost with no footprints.

I cry out again, hope fading like my footprints.

But this time, a muffled reply.

I shield my eyes and manage to sit up.

Out of the swaying curtains of snow,

I catch a glimpse of movement, a flurry of colour.

A familiar shape materializes.

A hand reaches out for me. I see the snow.

I take the hand and suddenly the snow is gone.

We're standing in a field with apple green grass

with soft wisps of clouds drifting above.

I look up and see the clear sky is filled with kites.

...

Hari Raya

2009-09-20T10:03:00.003+08:00

On this one special day, it's time for us to say "Thank You" and forgive each other for our past mistakes. It's our human nature to make mistakes. Everyone will hurt, and everyone gets hurt. So lets Forgive and Forget...

To my Dear Family,

Thank you for all the great things you've done for me.

Not even a thousand words can reciprocate your kindness given.

You have always be there for me.

Tolerating my nonsense.

You never judge, you only listen.

You never ignore, you always care.

Even when life seems hard,

You've always stayed strong for everyone.

Even when I was at my worst attitude,

You were patient with everything.

For that I can't thank you enough.

♥♥♥♥

To my Dear Friends,

Thank you for the awesome things you've done for me.

You guys have always been there through thick and thin.

I apologize for all the wrong doings I've done.

Be it unintentionally, or purposely.

If my words or actions have somehow hurt you.

I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart.

For all the obstacles that the future will bring us,

Hopefully our friendship will stay strong and true.

You guys are irreplaceable.

♥♥♥♥

Lastly, I wanna say thanks to a "Something", instead of a someone. My Heart. The most important organ in my body. I know, I may sound soooo crazy and weird right now. You guys may think "Of all things, why say thanks to an organ?!" I know, but my heart has suffered the most. It doesn't hurt to say thanks rite? So here it goes...

To my Heart,

Thank you.

For beating for me since the start of my life.

And until now.

For all the sufferings,

I apologize.

Everytime when I had an asthma attack,

You had to beat faster than usual.

So hard that eventually you'll ache.

Even I could feel your pain too.

When things got worse,

And I was uncontrollable,

You would have just stopped beating.

Just terminate and shutdown.

But you didn't.

Instead you continue to beat for me,

To beat for my life.

Even when you just felt like popping out,

You continued to stay strong.

You're a weak heart,

but you're strong enough to go through all these sufferings.

That's what made you the most special.

And for that,

I thank you with my life.

My heart.

♥♥♥♥

I know it may seem weird,

But I've come to a point where my sufferings

Has made me appreciate them more.

Coz deep down I believe,

That every single little thing has feelings...

Till then,

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAR ZAHIR DAN BATIN"

2009-09-15T21:53:00.003+08:00

It was just yesterday

That the sun was shining for us.

Our laughter echoed through the sky.

Our smiles were craved in my memories.

Wish time could have stopped.

Seems like today,

A dark cloud shadowed over us.

Absorbing all our tears.

And it rained for us.

Our laughter was taken away

By the lightning strikes.

Our smiles were burned by the fire.

Time got faster and faster.

But tomorrow,

Will the sun ever shine for us again?

2009-09-11T20:40:00.003+08:00

I'm like a candle;

In the darkness.

A new flame is born,

And I am

Lighting up your life

In every way I can.

Giving you all that I have,

All of me.

Just like an instant happiness.

Slowly, I'm fading away.

Melting away your desires.

And when all is done,

I'm already burned up.

Forgotten in your memories.

Good-bye...

Forever.

...

Hmm... Just a short poem I thought of again. I guess I haven't been posting for too long... Don't know what to post about. My life? Nothing interesting. More poems? I'm just tired of writing sad poems. I wish I could be happier. Though I wish all of us could. It's only my wish, but that's how life is. The fact is no one can be happy all the time. However, we can't always be depressed. Well, that's not life either. I've come to think that life is like a Wheel. There's always the ups, the down, and the in-between. Apparently, this may be the "In-between" part of my life.

The countdown is getting lesser, and I guess all of you might be psyched for it. Hari Raya is coming, But I don't want Ramadhan to end. I wish it could stay longer, I seriously don't mind fasting more. Fasting for the whole year? iknowimcrazy. Well, My brother's leaving soon. I hope I could send him off with a smile. Even if I had to cry, It'd be tears of joy. But I guess, everything that happens now, it comes with a greater reason. We have to suffer now, and hopefully enjoy the little things life has to bring for us later on. I just wish all the best for my bro. Not everything may go as planned, But hopefully he'll come back a stronger and better person. I'll miss him very much...

Wish all the Muslims a Good Ramadhan & an Advance Selamat Hari Raya.

Treasure these last few days...

Till then.

2009-08-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

"And if the sunset fades away
The vibrant clouds once more turn grey
If the war is far from done
And yet the battle's all but won
Save a darkened thought for me
Keep your worried conscience free
Save a lie, save a doubt
Save a chance to let it out
For once again the sun will rise
And the war cannot much longer stay
So open up your jaded eyes
And live
just live
For one more day
Live that day
Then hear me say
That if the war is far from done
And yet the battle's all but won
I need you dear,
to fight
and stay
and live this dream
for one more day."

-inspired from a Deviant.

...

2009-08-17T23:16:00.004+08:00

Smells like hatred in the air.

Vexed that I'm holding in.

Looking at you just makes me ick.

Your pitiful faces.

Faking everything, lies after lies.

Getting sympathy from others.

Well, do you think it's gonna last?

I've been too nice I guess.

Too humble... to even let the anger out.

Now, I'm gonna be straight forward,

For once in my life,

I'm gonna say words, that will

Cut your heart deepy, burn your soul,

Words that aren't gonna be nice.

Tired and sick of this game.

Call us whatever you want, fucking yag.

It's your fucking mouth.

Am I bothered?

Whislt you still irritate me.

I won't hate you.

You're not worth my fucking time.

2009-08-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

The sky is crying;

Raining the tears you can't feel

On your cheeks,

In your heart,

Pouring sheets of pain,

You don't even see.

You stare against the window,

Watching the lonely drops fall.

The glass is so cold,

But, you feel nothing at all.

Stand by the window,

You don't question how.

Watch the sky crying,

Death solemn vow.

Though the sky is pitch black,

The sky's tears hit the window,

Your hardened heart cracks.

The sky is crying,

You sit in grasses of sorrow.

Hold out your hands,

No demands.

Tears slide down your cheeks.

And it's okay...

... it's all okay.

Now on the other side of the window,

Catching each drop that falls.

Not the ones from the clouds, you see.

The sky?

... the sky is crying with me.

...

everything that I was feeling;

InSpired by DeviantArt.

2009-08-06T21:25:00.003+08:00

"I will never see the sky the same way and,

I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and,

I will never ceased to fly, I've held down and,

I will always reach t0o high, cause I've seen,

Cause I've seen, Twilight..."

...

Yeah, I've seen Twilight the Movie.

Anyway, this refers to a song.

No relation to the movie...

Hah, okay whatever nad.

Well, I'm addicted to the KEYBOARD!

Been playing it since after I just came back from sch

and until NOW..

My right hand is strained.

So semangat.

Playing a Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton.

Only the Intro part though.

Cause it took my hours just to perfected it.

Coz I'm so slow at knowing the notes.

Standard ah kan. I was born a slowpoke.

Hmm.. I just play by ear uh.

Coz I have no idea of the chords on the piano.

Haha kay whatever again nad.

I'm just soo bored.

Tommorow, CONDEMNATION DAY.

Oh, dreading for it man.

Gonna stone like an idiot again.

Tsumaranai yo ne. (Bored!)

Didn't go for rehersal today.

Woohoo! Rebel2. Hehe.

Whatever for the 3rd time.

Haha kekek seh.

Okay..

Booom!

2009-07-31T22:09:00.010+08:00

You were one of our best friends. We've gone through thick and thin. Though a characteristic of yours. Your angerness that acts with impatience. We've tolerated that for quite a long time. Now, it has gone over the limit. This is serious business. Warning! It's not gonna be nice...

...

Wrath boils in my blood.

Telling me to hate.

Hate for what you've done to us.

Anger from many different things.

I'm gonna let it go, speak it out.

Tell them what this anger is all about.

Though when I do speak out.

So many things go wrong.

Gentled down my voice so that

my anger won't take control of me.

But you, just ignored all of the consequences.

WHAT WAS THAT SHOUTING ALL ABOUT?

Our motive was to confront you.

Just let all your feelings out.

(not all your anger!)

Share your pain with us.

(but not your anger!!)

Solve this problem together.

(It's not all about you!)

Aren't this what friends are for?

Talk it out, like matured adults.

Instead, you went bonkers.

Crying and shouting is your only solution?

Just like on that rainy day,

We gathered all our thoughts.

To simply lightened this burden of yours.

But what did we get in return?

A simple thanks to show your appreciation?

(not at all, nada)

What are we to you?

Are we just nothing?

Just a thing to keep you company?

We know you have problems.

(don't we all do?)

Know that you do feel left out at times.

(you're not the only one...)

Expecting too much care from others.

(isn't our care enough?)

It's not all about you, you see.

We've tried to tell you, so many times.

(but you just wouldn't listen.)

If you got that all figured out,

then WHAT WAS THAT SHOUTING ALL ABOUT?!

You might not realize this.

But you have hurt us all.

How dare you drag our dear friend into this situation?

I won't accept that with a light heart.

Can't you read between the lines?

You had your chance to apologize

for that sinful act of yours.

(but you really threw it away)

A simple sorry will never be enough.

Imagine, if all of us were really drowning.

Almost dying, and you may never get to see them again.

Could you set aside your perceptions of

"Who you're most closest to, or don't really talk to."

"Who you care for the most, or who cares for you."

These tittles are all just USELESS.

Even if they're all different,

aren't they all still your friends?

I understand this character of yours.

This disposition that is incapable of

putting anything into words.

But for once in your life,

could you just play it cool?

Can't you laugh a little, smile a little?

Stop waiting for others to care for you.

Stop waiting for others to make the first move.

TREAT OTHERS THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED.

Call us names, all the vulgarities you can ever think of.

It's your mouth, I don't bother.

But you've just gone too far.

We're going down the same road again.

I've said this once,

(but you never listen)

And I'm gonna say it again.

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.

Think about it.

In this moment of time,

I will NEVER forgive you that easily.

You heard that.

...

Now,

I shall recite the poetry of VULGARITIES.

The "F**K, I don't wanna read this shit anymore" button

is just on the North-East corner of this page.

Please meticulously make your way up there.

Thank you and "Come again".

...

FUCKING ASSHOLE. DID I EVER CALLED YOU CB. NOW THIS IS ALL FOR YOU. FUCKING BLOODY.

FUCK.SHIT.FUCK.SHIT.FUCK.YOU.SHIT.FUCK.YOU.BLOODY.SHIT.SHITTY.FUCKY.BLOODY.SHIT!

CHIBAI.BAKA.BAKA.BAKA.CHIBAI.CHIBAI.ICHIBAN NO HONTONI WA SAITTE NA KANINABE lah!

YOU FUCKING CRABPOT. BLABLABLABLA *ALL THE BAD WORDS COMING OUT FROM THE KEY BOARD* FUUYOOOOOH. Now I'm so tired... Tired of all this SHIT. Alright, won't waste my time thinking about this...

Ataghfirullahalazim. Subhanallah. Innalillah.

Okay I'm Done.

2009-07-27T20:53:00.005+08:00

Everybody's talking about it.

It's everywhere.

It's in the air.

In movies, books, Tvs, songs,

around the world.

A kind of language that people speak.

Though they say,

it cleanses the heart,

yet, it makes it burn.

Still, everyone's yearning for it.

How unique can this feeling be?

Magic, maybe.

Will there be a work of fires

on the first encounter?

A shooting star

across the sky?

It embraces the world.

Embracing the heart,

when it's in pain.

That special thing.

Once you find it,

you must hold on tight.

It may hurt to let go.

But that's the only thing that

makes us want more.

Some people sacrifice their

life for it.

Is it worth sacrificing for?

Does it... last forever?

Is it true?

Does it exist?

Well, I've yet to know.

-a secret.

shhhh!

2009-07-15T20:38:00.008+08:00

Water dripping down my face. Tasting the saltiness down my mouth. It's nothing new. I can't see and everything's a blur. I close my eyes. Try to get my breath back, stop sobbing. But it's a failed attempt. The sobs came back, harder this time, stronger. I'm fighting for air. But it feels like I'm fighting for my life. My heart beat's got out of tempo, uncontrolled. Am I so weak? Why? I don't know. These tears, what am I crying for? They say, the sun and moon are bright. But they don't shine for me. Is it the same for all? This sadness? That dwells within us, like a neverending sickness.

When you have everything, your dear family and friends, yet, do you ever feel so lonely at times? But am I being selfish that way? Is it such a brutal way of thinking? I'm weaker than anyone thinks. For that matter, all humans are naturally weak. When your mind tells you to give up, but your heart tells you to stay strong. When your mind tells you to stop, but your heart just keeps going on. Some say, our minds and hearts are connected in a special way. But the mind is just the mind. And the heart is just the heart. They can either be as one, or just betray each other.
When you're trying to reach out for something, no matter how much you stretch your hands, you can never reach it. When you desperately wants someone to understand you, your pain, but no one can. And when you truthfully wants to understand someone, his/her pain, but you just can't. When you're pleading for someone's attention, your voice trying to reach them. But you're just completely unheard, ignored and neglected. When you're surrounded by the ones you love, yet you still feel so separated. These feelings, they might be little, but they hurts a darn lot. Are we all just alone?
Imagine, everyone is somehow stuck on their own little deserted island. With no guidance, no one at all. Just you, yourself and you. Only depending on hope and faith. The only thing that makes you go on. But wanting to find a way out of this deserted island. You swim out to the open dangerous sea. Knowing that you may never come back to the only place you can ever feel safe. Swim out with all your might. And when the storm came, you hold on tight. But the strong currents pushes you away. Break away from the little thing called faith. With helplessness in your eyes, will you ever make it through this storm?
No one leads a problem-free life. They say happiness isn't forever. But sadness last a lifetime. Even knowing that, even if our wishes didn't come true, can we ever feel a tiny bit of true happiness? Will I ever? I want.. to smile knowing, believing that everything will be alright. To go forward, believing that there's someone beside me. To run with all my might, without have my lungs to plead for air and my heart screaming in pain. I want to feel that little bit of true happiness. Though I know that it isn't forever. Will there be a light at the end of the tunnel?

2009-07-11T17:02:00.002+08:00

Smile,

though you heart is aching.

Smile,

even though it's breaking.

When there are clouds in the sky,

You'll get by...

If you smile

with your fear and sorrow.

Smile and maybe tomorrow.

You'll find up that life is still worthwhile

If you'll just...

Light up your face with gladness.

Hide every trace of sadness.

Although a tear maybe ever so near.

That's the time you must keep on trying.

Smile,

what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you'll just...

Smile,

though your heart is aching.

Smile,

even though it's breaking.

When there are clouds in the sky,

You'll get by.

If you smile,

through your fear and sorrow.

Smile and maybe tomorrow.

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you'll just smile.

That's the time you must keep on trying.

Smile,

what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you'll just smile...

So, SMILE!

-MJ

2009-07-08T20:05:00.002+08:00

It was just like any other day,

we sat, staring out the glass window.

Sighing to ourselves,

all the thoughts that's been

running through our heads,

repeating all the scenes that had happen,

over and over again.

Thinking, "Why?"

The only word that came out

from your cold, tricking mouth

was Bye.

You lied to us, You hurt us,

And yet, you've caused a tear

to fall from our dear friend.

Do you think saying "sorry" is enough?

Do you think it will wipe these tears off?

Do you think it will heal our torn hearts?

Yes, you said you hated people

Who can't see through others hearts.

Yet, you can't even see through ours.

People's feeling cannot be

comprehended that easily.

You don't even know the reason

why we're upset.

It's not that we're taking it too hard.

It's the carelessness of your action,

so very thoughtless,

that hurt us deeply.

Still, we're able to smile, and

act like everything's okay.

Well, my friend,

What goes around comes around.

-Just two words,
SAITTE WA!

2009-07-07T16:34:00.006+08:00

"I'm hopeless;

yet I'm still hoping for a miracle to happen.

I'm alone;

still I'm longing for someone,anyone, to be there.

I cry;

though I know that these tears won't bring back the memories.

I smile;

even though I know that nothing is gonna be alright.

I listened;

to the part of me that tells me to stay strong,

to fight the bad thoughts.

I ignored;

the whispers of another part of me that's only bringing me down,

a reflection of a weak self-confidence.

Yet, in the end,

I'm only lying to myself."

As she stands, looking up to the dark, cold and fearful sky.
The splattering of the rain on her cold skin.
Those melancholy tears disguised by the tears of the sky.
When the massacre of her mind was over,
All she could do was sigh.
And the promises of tommorow,
of a better day stills hung in the cold air.

2009-07-02T18:40:00.004+08:00

"Climb up, over the top.

Survey the state of your soul.

You've gotta find out for yourself

whether or not your truly trying.

Why not, give it a shot?

Shake it, take control

and inevitably wind up.

Find out for yourself all the strength

that you have inside you."

Back to that

Place of Slow

but Sure Body Cramping,

Mind-Numbing,

Fun-Killing Torture,

Boring-Blabbing of Teachers,

More Drooling Sleeps

and Just Plain Dull

a.k.a School.

Since the june holidays were over,

I proudly yet guiltily confess that

I did NOTHING at all

during the holidays.

Didn't even touch a single book.

Well, flashback during recess...

My friends were all in deep conversations,

looking all serious.

While listening, was concentrating on

cutting that piece of chicken.

My stomach was growling for more.

So, "CRACK!".

The pathetic spoon broke.

As if it's head were cut off.

And they all burst out laughing.

What a way to break out of those serious faces!

Oh wells, it's plastic after all.

It couldn't handle any excess force.

E-maths lesson,

Started on money exchange.

At first, it was hard to comprehend.

And then I needed bread,

Cause my mind were all JAMmed up.

I know this is freaking lame. =.=

Oh wells.

2009-06-29T22:01:00.004+08:00

There's A Place In

Your Heart

And I Know That It Is Love

And This Place Could

Be Much

Brighter Than Tomorrow

And If You Really Try

You'll Find There's No Need

To CryIn

This Place You'll Feel

There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways

To Get There

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Little Space

Make A Better Place...

If You Want To Know Why

There's A Love That

Cannot Lie

Love Is Strong

It Only Cares For

Joyful Giving

If We Try

We Shall See

In This Bliss

We Cannot Feel

Fear Or Dread

We Stop Existing And

Start Living

Then It Feels That Always

Love's Enough For

Us Growing

So Make A Better World

Make A Better World...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

His Music Will Love Forever.

MJ R.I.P.

Let me introduce you to...

2009-06-17T21:14:00.013+08:00

let me introduce you to her.

a girl, with feelings, yet broken.

an invisible soul,

wandering the lonely earth.

no one can see her,

no one can feel her,

no one can sense her

that she's there.

what ever she does,

what ever she gives,

no one appreciates,

no one knows that it's her.

she has no one.

nobody.

nada.

let me introduce you to her world.

surrounded by the ones she loves,

yet she feels separated, alone.

living in an invisible world.

just clear as glass.

people just walk through her.

they don't notice

her existence

in this world.

they don't care

about her presence.

she's nowhere to be found.

just a nothing.

she just needed

someone to just look at her

cares for her

know her

for who she really is.

is that so much to ask for?

feeling so lost in this world.

lost with no direction.

yet, she has everything

-great friends/family.

she just invisible.

she wants to scream for help.

but no one can hear her.

no one can save her.

she's just losing to herself.

would it kill just to feel accepted?

would the sky fall just to be happy?

would the glass break just for people to notice her?

to care for her?

to appreciate her?

would it?

let me introduce you to...

me.

-been keeping in for so long.

needed to let it out. =/

2009-06-16T21:49:00.003+08:00

in each bubble there is a dream,
every person in the world have an
invisible soap bubble that follows him/her.
when you'll discover it, touch it,
and a great dream will be opened
in front of you, for you.
all is real, it's enough to believe it.
also because dreams are always welcome,
or not?...

----

Skating on ICE!
had section outing yesterday.
we went ice skating.
my first experience skating on ice..
wobbly, fun and not to mention icy~~
it was hard for me,
coz I didn't have any skating experience.
well, most of us didn't anyway...
tried walking at first,
then tired gliding.
did it very YLWOLS.
maybe even slower than a snail.
well you know, I'm a very WOLS person.
in the end, I just used the metal railing thingy.
(for the amateurs)
finally, i could glide! wow.
thankfully didn't fall on my butt.
the others did...
then, had dinner at mac's.
the juniors went crazehhh...
well all of us did too.
went home and my body was aching all over.
all i wanted to do was SLEEP.
had BUBBLE blisters on both my feet.
it popped and now it hurts like hell.
though, it was fun anyway.
till then
Have a bubbly icy day comfians!

2009-06-14T22:08:00.003+08:00

I'm all alone,
stuck in a dark corner of my clouded mind.
No one to talk to, no one to be loved by,
Why can't anyone hear my cries for help?

So many emotions buzzing round my head,
Why won't they slow down?
I need to feel the touch of someone else,
On my pale and dried out skin.

These feelings, they make me cry,
I feel so isolated.
It's like my body lives,
But inside I'm already dead.

Needing a shoulder to cry on,
Someone I can talk to and seek comfort from.
Anyone who at least... cares for me.
I want so so many things.
But I'll never have any of them.

So here I am,
Waiting for someone to save me from myself.
People say you can escape from prison,
Well I can't,
Because I'm stuck in the worst prison of all...

Loneliness...

-inspired by deviantArt

Beleive

2009-06-11T13:45:00.004+08:00

can we...
make dreams into reality,
and make reality from our dreams...?

can we...
turn feelings into words,
and turn words into actions...?

can we...
learn from mistakes,
and start over new...?

can we...
pick ourselves up from failure...
and strive to success...?

can we...
make ideas and opinions,
into something that would change the world...?

can we...
do it?

....

we can..
make dreams into reality,
make dreams come true...

we can...
turn feelings into words,
into actions that speaks louder than words...

we can...
turn fears into challenges,
overcome it, which makes us stronger...

we can...
turn failure into an opportunity,
to begin again more intelligently...

we can...
turn ideas into a creation,
one that will change the world...

we can...
do it!

if only we...

Believe...

-we can do anything, if we put our hearts to it,
if only we believe...

2009-06-10T20:04:00.002+08:00

I can almost see it
that dream I'm dreaming but
there's a voice in my head saying,
You'll never reach it.
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
but I,
Got to keep trying,
Got to keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but,
No I'm not breaking,
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb.

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith
It's all about
The climb
Keep your faith

-a song is a poem turned into a melody.

a beautiful song.
the words, the melody,
uberly deep and touching.
i guess i'm already addicted to it.
the movie was amazing though.
had a great time with da buddies.
but suddenly, i don't know why...
my heart started to beat fast.
as if it was gonna explode...
why?
i don't know either.
but now, i'm writing again.
it made me calmed abit.
oh wells.
(:

2009-06-07T13:52:00.004+08:00

my throat went dry,
my mouth is open
but the words aren't coming out.
their eyes are moving,
but they aren't looking.
can't you see that i'm here?
longing for your attention,
craving for an existence,
yet, i sit here thinking,
"How more invisible can i be,
for you to ignore me like this?"
for once at least,
can you show me that you care?
even if it's a slightest smile,
or a face full of concern and care.
for once at least,
can you show me that you know im there?
as i turn slowly,
hoping to see them there,
though somehow,
i turn, and see no one,
no one but myself,
tears streaming down my cheeks,
and the lonely trees,
waving in the wind...

just another poem i thought of again.
so emotional and deep.
i don't know why, i guess i was just bored.
oh wells, been bored these few days...
the performance on friday was a BLAST!
really enjoyed it.
now, i'm already addicted to The Sims 3.
chilling at home, listening to indie music.
this is life.
(:

2009-06-04T16:30:00.003+08:00

i wish i was a cloud,
when everything is slow and free,
no hurries, no worries
everything is calm and all is peace,
taking life as easy as it is,
but nothing can be that easy...

when lightning strikes and thunder appears,
the sky brought tears of sorrow and darkened fears.
a drop of rain, a drop of tear,
the splattering of rain is all that we hear.
let the sufferings, let the pain,
wash over the earth,
wash away all their worries,
and when all is done...

the grey cotton-candy cloud
wipes the tears off a lonely earth,
the darkness fade into a welcoming light,
a ray of hope,
it smiles, it shines,
and the heaven open up once again.
all is pure, all is calm, finally
i am the cloud...

-that was my unfinished poem
well, i guess now it's finished...
(:

2009-06-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

Now I am about to lose,
I am close to tears, it seems I am fading away.
As I go forward,
whose words can I believe in?
I have only one heart,
and it's been broken many times over.
Living for today is living in pain,
Living for today.

The seas of a stormy youth are harsh,
But we go forward on a ship of dreams
to the shores of tomorrow.
Now, don't give up, don't cry,
when it seems it's time to fade away
You can believe in your own voice as you go forward.
Sleepless nights from pain.
Living for today is bitter, yet sweet.
Your whole life has meaning,
don't be afraid on dreaming big.
Keep on believing.

I am about to lose, I am close to tears,
it seems that I'm about to be defeated.
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words can I believe in?
Don't give up, don't cry,
Though it seems it's time to fade away.
You can believe in your own voice as you go forward.
You can't avoid sadness,
whatever age you are.
So show your smiling face, and go on living for today.
Living for today.

-a song is a poem turned into a melody.

2009-06-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

An uneasy thought
Escaping from my mind.
The pain that I've fought,
Sadness that Isn't mine.
A feeling locked up in my heart.
Something isn't right.
Feelings so surreal, so unsure.
The darkness fade into light.
Somehow, I have to let it out,
but, my words are falling on deaf ears.
Will i be hurt again?
Is there no end?

June holies are knocking on our doors!
Yet, my mind's not set for it...

It's a "duh-er" that we're still require to come to school.
For CCAs, tutorials and blablabla...
Oh well, Welcome to the "Sad and Unfortunate life of a Student" ;)
Still, a month can be verry short.
Time is passing by super fast nowadays.
Like a bullet train, ZOOOM!!
So, Cherish these precious time people!
I don't really have plans for the holies.
While my friends are enjoying themselves overseas...
I'm stuck at home, rotting, counting the days to pass.
I guess I just have to "entertain" myself.
Hmmm...
Mmmmhmmmmm...
Watching tear-jerking movies,
prepared with a box of tissues.
Rock out the night playing GH.
I have no idea what else..
Bored.Bored.Bored.
Oh wells.
:)

2009-06-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

I open my mind and I let the thoughts spill out
constantly onto the paper before me, considering
all the many words that I might say, that I might
allow myself to hear.

As i sit alone, and I reflect on the curiosity
placed so clearly before me, as I reflect on
the world around me, as I see the darkness fade away
and becomes light; and as I see the light itself
coalesce back into darkness.

Loneliness is a boon, loneliness is a gift,
a poison tearing through the existence.

Found to be disengaged from those around you,
and curious to what's real and what's not...
The reality bathes around you in the ephemeral light,
just as you bathe in reality.

There is hope in this world, to be sure,
but only if one takes the hope,
only if one is to follow down the path that
they truly want,
only if one is to follow down the path
that grants them life,
that grants them love.

So I walk down my path, and at the end,
a lonely soul stands...
Will it be you?

-inSpired (DA)